damn damn damn my mood swings.

of late, i have struggled to find the meaning. thn today, while i was watching a program on chn 16 call 'jamie america trip' or smth. :x

there was this guy, that works in the day, as a school gardener or something(didnt hear properly) but at night, he's cooking to serve 76 homeless people in the cold. to me, that really means a great deal.

he was previously a illegal immigrant, which later became a citizen due to amities(dk how to spell) thn, with that little pay he has, cook for soo many homeless people with his own freewill. personally, thats really, salute.
thn later ok in the show, a bird did a dropping on his head lol. jamie was saying 'of all the people here, the bird had to pick the best one. what luck !' and i rofled. hhahaz


but seriously, what is it underneath it all? i mean, what is it? why are we here? wtf is all this? i dont get it seriously. its driving me nuts. and dont get me started abt jobs n passion. wats with it. i'd wish i knw my purpose. or at least gimme a clue on how to find it.



thn, i was watching monster quest on history chn (ya, alot of time for tv) it was about mega sharks today.. hmm...

man is at the top of the food chain, and yes, we're the reason behind it all. but what is it? all we do is eat n slp n watever so that we can live another day? no?

isnt it *********???????? effking indescribable.

geez, sometime i rly feel im alone in this world with all this thinking n st0ffz... =.=


i think, after saying other people being emo n stuff, im actually pretty emo myself. but who cares.

too much time on my hands maybe?